2000-04-17 - 23:19:49
Getting Real

Getting Real

J.C. just left - a beautiful 18 year old Caribbean sweetie who I met at the bar a couple months back. Honey, he looks and tastes delectable. Short, wiry, charcoal angel. We had a little fling for about a month, and once he realized that I was firm about not wanting a conventional boyfriend, he wasn't comfortable being sexual with me any more. I was disappointed about that, of course, but we have stayed friends.

J.C. is starved for gay life, images, stories. We always watch gay-themed movies when he comes over and tonight it was "Get Real" which I first saw a few weeks' back. A great coming out flick from Britain. As I expected, J.C. loved it. I experienced the touching, funny story on a whole different level watching it with him. And I yearned to touch him, cuddle with him while we watched and maybe sometime that will feel right. For tonight, it was great just to hang out and start to get to know each other in a different way.

As he was leaving just now we hugged and I began to knead his musclebound shoulders and back. He moaned his approval and there was something about this deliciousness that had nothing to do with seduction. I just pressed my fingers into him and held him for a few minutes like that, offering a full massage next time, and with a kiss on the lips he was gone into his waiting cab.

I probably could have manipulated the situation to get off with him. As it stands, I am writing this with a throbbing crotch and a yearning heart. Kinda like how that feels.

Delayed gratification breeds other soul stories. Relatively speaking, I'm an old man when it comes to these young men I desire. And I can be a dirty old man too. That's a part of my erotic story - I love sex with hot young men.

But there are other ways to coax out our hearts.

QueerScribe

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